Asleep at the wheel

It's Friday now. Again. It seems that no matter how many there are, it's impossible to tire of them.

I've done a poor job with getting to the computer lately. Rather, a poor job with keeping up with this blog. Life as of late has become almost surreal, and I spend my evenings laying in bed thinking about what I should write, and inevitably forgetting in the morning.

I lay there at night and I think about my day, the people I saw, the conversations I had, the pictures I took. I think about the moments and let them point me in the direction of what I should post about. Everything around me inspires me.

And then I close my eyes. And I fall asleep. And I dream dreams that are soon forgotten.

I trust myself enough to know that there will always be something to write about, always something to express. But how often do forgotten thoughts return?

Some of those late night thoughts have been good ones....

Back on track...

Okay then, that last week of postings was fun. Looking forward to seeing what this week has in store. So far, things look to be getting off to an interesting start as I lay in my bed and type this with one hand... (It has taken me far longer to write this much than it normally would...)

Seeing that brevity is key then, I shall make but one point.

This world is a crazy place. And I'm not talking about crazy people and the crazy things they do; I'm talking about the crazy things that happen beyond our control. I'm talking about chance encounters, bizarre coincidences, and serendipity.

Oh how the world keeps us on our toes.

Yeah... that's all for tonite. Sweet dreams everyone.

Sex: Part II

I had envisioned doing a whole week-long series on this topic, but the week is nearly over now, and I'm only on the second posting. Go me.

So, yeah, sex. Why had I felt the impulse to dedicate a week to it?

Probably because I think it's a lot more complicated of a topic than it seems. I mean, sex, we all know it, we've all had it, what is there really to say?

I suppose that it means something to me to write about it here because sex is a part of my life, alongside all of the other experiences I've had in life, and sex always qualifies as an experience!

Sometimes the experience is good, and it leaves one wanting more. Sometimes it's not, and so you move on. (Yes, it is very easy to move on from said situation.. hahaha...) Fundamentally, sex isn't ever really the issue though; it's usually the emotions that get tied in that complicate and get the better of people.

I'm not an advocate for emotionless sex though; that's absolutely no fun. By all means, bring on the roller-coaster ride of life and throw some sex and feelings into the mix. That's what makes a person come alive!

But if the emotions become possessive, untrusting, or aren't mutual, the physical relationship takes the toll. When it comes to success in relationships, the delicate balance of openness in communication and openness in bed is one that needs to be maintained.

Being with someone with whom you share a mutual trust and admiration, being touched by someone who cares for you and that you care for in return, being kissed by someone who enjoys kissing you and whom you happily kiss back, and having sex with someone and not ever wanting it to end, that's what good sex is all about, and perhaps the key to a healthy sexual relationship.

I wonder what I'll come up with next...

Sex: Part I

Sex, is, well, what can I say? Sex is sex is sex.

It's what we bring to it that creates a significance.

Sex can be fun, it can be passionate, it can be quick, and it can hurt. Not necessarily all together, or even in that order. Hahaha...

But yeah, sex can be many things, or nothing at all. Sometimes sex is just sex. Say hello to one night stands.

One Night Stands
Not a fan. Never was, never will be.

In an effort to not insult those of you who are fans, I'll treat this delicately.

It's no fun waking up next to a stranger, its no fun being touched by someone who doesn't know how to touch you, and its definitely no fun being treated like you are just a warm body to f*ck.

Especially when you're a hell of a lot more than that.

Jaded

Relationships are wonderful. Even when they suck, they're fucking great.

Why? Because of how much you can learn from them, about yourself, about others.

By all means, have as many relationships as possible! See how differently people can smile. Hear how differently they can laugh. Feel how differently they can kiss. Sense how differently they can love.

Keep in mind always that everyone's got their own M.O. From one person to the next, never expect the same thing twice. Some people hold hands while others link arms, some kiss the neck and others the back, and some like to hold while others prefer to fall asleep. And forget about discussing preferred positions... we're all definitely unique people.

Be weary though, as relationships create memories, and those memories can alter who you are and how you operate, especially if they weren't positive.

Don't be jaded by the letdowns of the past. Don't lose faith just because someone else did. If you discover within yourself abandoned hopes, forgotten dreams, and fear, then it's time to revisit who you really are. Push the memories aside.

Rekindle those old desires, get back on the road to your dreams, and fear nothing. Be you.

Doing this will keep you strong and open enough for any relationship, if you so choose to have one.

Don't ever let old memories get in the way of new ones.

The Human Condition - Chapter 10

There are no rules in life. Only the norms.

And breaking from them is bliss.

Unless, of course, you're a gun-toting trench coat wearing angry person, in which case, please don't break the norms and shoot people. It's not cool. You're ruining our day.

The fog

I was supposed to leave Paris. I was supposed to board a plane. I was supposed to go away. But the fog settled in and I wasn't going anywhere.

He said it was a sign. He said stay.

I asked if he'd have me if I stayed.

He said absolutely.

I didn't leave Paris. I didn't board my plane. I didn't go away.

Only the fog did.