i dare not dream again.
Friday, December 9, 2011
late to dream
i dare not dream again.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
fingertips
it isn't mine
it belongs to the brain in my head.
thank goodness however
for these jaws of steel
for without them i'd surely be dead.
appetite aside though
i have my two sides
which are easy to tell apart.
for without my fingertips
and this keyboard
i'd never have a voice for my heart.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
mirror
a frozen lake
i am on both sides
and am face to face with reflection.
locked away beneath the surface
this reflection is all i've got.
i struggle with what i see.
i do not know how to melt the ice
and break this glass.
i hope this does not last.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
believe
i have to believe that they do.
for if no one changed
then pray tell
how am i here with you?
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
wicked winter
as if the trees are inviting me off my path
and motioning for me to come forth.
the wind whips my hair about my face
blinding me from what lays ahead
and forcing me to stand my ground.
paralyzed with a chill that has slipped under my layers
motivated to simply hibernate
where is my spring when i need it?
Sunday, October 16, 2011
the road i want to travel
and already i can feel it beneath my feet.
it extends much further beyond
the distance that my eyes can see.
Friday, October 7, 2011
the end of an era
the year of passing
and the year of loss.
the year of tears
and sleepless nights.
this has been a year of
finding oneself lost.
and this year is still
far from over.
this year has marked the end of an era.
an era where all had been well in the world.
and now it's not.
two thousand twelve.
i await you with baited breath.
until then, RIP those we have lost.
these tears they fall for you.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
wake
knowing how it'll end.
i rarely take steps
knowing where they'll lead.
i don't smile
expecting one in return.
and i won't ever
ask someone to change.
life is what it is.
and what will happen will happen.
i will go where i go
and always end up
somewhere else.
i pray no one is hurt in my wake.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
here
where to go now ...
to the right is the sunrise.
an open path
blinded by sunlight,
but the breeze carries promises
of possibilities
and tomorrow.
to the left
the woods
carpeted in blinding fog,
the residue of yesterday,
but in my gut i know
that i'll still find my way.
this isn't lost;
i know where i am
and i know where i came from.
i just don't where to go from here.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
circle
encircling me
together we dance
this dizzying dance.
i will hold on to you
until i let go.
your hand will grab onto mine
and then let it go.
face to face
eye to eye
cheek to cheek
and then we're spinning away again.
i am so dizzy.
please let's stop this dance.
circling you
encircling me
i am ready to stand still.
broken window
all the windows are broken.
let the bulls run wild,
let the rains come down,
let me remember what it feels like again
to be me.
these windows have been broken for so long.
i tried to hide them behind the curtain,
until yet again
a stone i threw.
instead of a crash
there was silence
because i have thrown that stone before.
and why fix the glass
when i might throw that stone again.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
swing
what's real
and what's not?
where
is the
telltale marker?
cannot accept
science's proposal:
chemicals
in the blood
make me feel this way.
cannot accept
religion:
the one
true god
has a plan.
like a swing,
i'm here,
i'm there.
today and tomorrow
i am
everywhere.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
nightfall
every night,
it rains.
it is unrelenting.
it is consistent.
it is soft.
and then
it stops.
just.
like.
t
h
a
t
.
.
.
.
and then it starts again.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
time
that can be felt
and exists within time:
it can be counted
- it IS counted -
and yet time both drags and slips
right thru our fingers.
perhaps time is not being measured
by the right parameters.
perhaps time isn't meant to be measured at all.
for when you lose a person you love,
the time you knew them
doesn't change
one ounce
of the sadness,
the denial,
the grief,
and the number of tears
that fall.
love is love.
and love is timeless.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
if i could speak
How do you find them?
When there is a void
How do you fill it?
When the emotion is overwhelming
Where do you begin?
Speechless
and
empty
and
lost.
So lost.
Saturday, June 4, 2011
je ne peux plus
j'essaie comme une foule
mais je ne peux plus.
j'suis desolee mon amour,
mon dieu,
moi,
mais je ne peux plus.
je veux oh comme je veux
mais je peux pas.
je ne peux plus.
pardonnez-moi
j'aurais jamais essayer.
je me connais mieux que ca
j'avais tort
malgre la faite que j'aimerais bien...
j'suis desolee
mais je ne peux plus.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
a helping hand
Monday, April 18, 2011
grandpa
are you with grandma now? is what they say true? are you watching me now from above?
did you know i came to visit you? i promised you that i would. i'm sorry i couldn't come sooner. i'm sorry i couldn't stay by your side longer.
grandpa, i'm sorry i didn't call more often. i thought about you every day. i have many pictures of you that i always keep close. you are so special to me.
i wish we could go back to that autumn day at your apartment. you were so full of energy, so excited to show me your latest pieces of art. we ate cookies and drank coffee. grandpa, on that day, in flesh and blood, you were 95 years young.
grandpa, you are forever in my heart and you will last a lifetime in my memories.
i hope that what they say is true, because that would mean that you're not alone up there. so until next we meet, i'll be thinking of you, and missing you dearly.
grandpa, i love you.
a tale of two sisters
Thursday, April 7, 2011
deja vu
Monday, January 17, 2011
you changed me
together again we grow,
and i know,
that being with you is changing me.